Thursday, June 28, 2007

Note from dear Novie

Sms from Novie tonight: (no internet access)

It's been a wonderful journey (with you all). I can't imagine how much greater our walk together with Him will be in the future, knowing that He is that wonderful and big. =)

I'm glad to see you and my sisters grow so much in such a short time. You are all just beautiful and pleasing to God. =)

Novie will be flying to Indonesia this Sunday 7.15am with her mum, cousins etc. Continue to uphold her mother in prayer for the healing to be complete!

We will see Novie soon! =)

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Hosanna in the Highest

The past two weekends we had been singing Hillsong United's Hosanna in our youth services.

It is an awesome song, stirring us deep, both its music composition and lyrics. I love it. There was a certain stillness in the air whenever we sang it.

But let me be honest with you, family. For the past two months since I knew this song, there are always certain parts in the bridge which, at times, I did not dare to sing. Some words got choked in my throat, and my voice hung in silence, in fear and trembling.

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

I could imagine Jesus excruciatingly saying the words above to the Father before His road to Calvary.

Do you really dare to ask the Lord to break your heart for what breaks His?

Are you really ready to give up everything of yourself for His kingdom?

A dear brother prepared me gently when I told him I really want to learn to love like Jesus does, "...that is going to be really painful.." I actually had to be reminded (again).

Now I am not asking you to treat this song like one for the saints. But may I call us all not to sing it flippantly. 'Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart' (1 Samuel 16:7b).

It is perfectly fine if we find that we need to walk a journey before we can mean every word with our heart. More importantly is whether we are consistently willing for the Lord to break us bit by bit, more and more, and mould us increasingly into His likeness.

I know the Lord is pleased with me even when I sing the bridge in a small and even trembling voice, so afraid that I do not mean each word. Each time my heart shudders and pains when I sing the word 'break', I give thanks to Jesus that even though I am not fully broken, I am still willing enough for Him to continue doing so...

till I can truly give everything I am for His Kingdom's cause..

... till Hosanna is in the highest.

Are we willing to step out of ourselves into situations whereby we know we can be broken, ie. the 100K Blessings? Hear this:

If my life is broken when given to Jesus, it is because pieces will feed a multitude, while a loaf will satisfy only a little lad. ~ Ruth Stull


Your Truest Self

It was not just inspirational to hear Ps Khong on Sunday. I heard the lion roar, awakening the souls in many of us who may have forgotten or felt weak to claim the victories God has for us this year!

i truly believe that THE BEST IS YET TO COME -for the church, for my ministry, for the lives of each of you dears, and for my personal life.

A. Overcome Past Experiences - Be Set Free!
B. Overcome Present Comfort - Begin to Grow!
C. Overcome Future Insecurities - Become the Best!

True, we have heard or known this for long. But most crucially are we practising these in our lives? Every step, every stage?

Today i thought i heard God tell me in follow-up from Sunday's sermon, in order to do A, B and C, i have to remember who i am.

Been reading and reflecting through John Eldredge's 'Waking the Dead', and this poem caught my heart

Then from on high - somewhere in the distance
There's a voice that calls - remember who you are
If you lose yourself - your courage soon will follow
So be strong tonight - remember who you are

(Gavin Greenaway and Trevor Horn, Sound the Bugle)

True enough, everytime i am distracted, feel dry or down for a moment, once i grab myself to remember who i am - i am God's daughter, i am God's, my heart is strengthened.

Then i know the past does NOT have to bind my feet, i have even the divine resources to push myself beyond my limits, and i can rest my already-decided future in the hands of God who gives the best!

Who are you? You are God's.
Remember who you are.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Listen Up, Everybody! :)

Hi everybody. I'm having tummy ache now so i'm going to type this post very fast and this would be a short one. :)

I'm feeling so fidgety lately. ARGH can be used too. I'm ill today and i didn't make it to school. wonder what's happening in school today... Ugh, my parents so strongly against me not attending school even though i'm sick and i don't want to be sick too! :/

I'm going to talk about yesterday's sermon because i did not attend processing due to the malaysia trip. I think i'm going to die or something like that. 'If you want to grow, you have to go.' Alrights, the definition of this sentence to me is that if i want to become stronger and more experienced, i have to get out of the safety zone and take the risk. It's like don't be afarid to take up any challenge because in the end, there's something beneficial awaiting for you. I think this is very inspirational as it motivates one to get on the go. If one keeps telling herself that she's tired or not good for anything, she won't be able to make it big or even dare to take up any challenge because she thinks that she can't do anything well and is a loser. Don't look at the past or brood over any past bondages as all these will demoralise you. Look at the future, visualise it as a bright bright one. This would help you to motivate your spirit and yearn for more. If one keeps living in the past, the person would only have the past in all her life. In conclusion, this parallels to our willingness to take risks for God and how much do we yearn for him. Are we able to really trust all our inheritance unto God's hands? If you do, you're on the road of blessings. If not, push yourself! A broken and contrite heart, I will not despise. :)

Thank you Lord, in Jesus' name we pray,
AMEN! :)

Bye folks, i need to go to the toilet now. :)

Thursday, June 21, 2007


This is the song by Ps Eugene's son, Ben, which Ps E shared last Sunday. These were what Ben wrote about his song on his blog:

Where do we find our worth? There's always someone better, someone smarter, someone stronger, and the list goes on. In conclusion, there is no where on earth we can find our worth, in a literal sense. We all strive to be that superstar, to stand out, failing to realise the mere beauty of our existense. We are His proudest creation, made in His liking. We already are valuable from the point of the birth, already a star. So shine on (: not for the glory of one's self but for our Creator. For that is the only way we can shine, through the very Source of Light!

May every word seep deep into your heart. Receive it!

Can't wait to hear Ben sing this out. =)


"Just like the stars in the night sky
My child you shine so brightly in My eyes
How could you doubt My creation
Everytime you look down on your formation"

"Cos before I gave this earth life
I was thinking of you, your face was on My mind
That precious smile, the twinkle in your eye
Just as I planned, they look so much like Mine"


"Special boy, special girl
Why do you do this to yourself?
Don't you know, how much you make Me glad
And I'm proud to be your Dad

Precious boy, precious girl
Can you not see how much you're worth?
Just think, you must have been worth something big
Cos i would'nt come and die just for nothing"

"Do you see the beauty of the sunrise?
Can you feel the coolness of the night?
But the purpose of these I was creating
Was for you, for you in the making"

"Cos long ago, I had a dream of you
You were more beautiful than the stars and the moon
Then you were made fearfully, wonderfully
So as I've dreamed for you, would you now dream for Me?"

Chorus 2

"Special boy, special girl
Wipe those tears of your face
Cos I paid for you with the fullness of My grace
Just so you could feel again the warmth of My embrace

Precious boy, precious girl
Plaeas don't change the way you are
Can't you see? You're so beautiful to Me
Can't you see, can't you see"


"Child, I love you
I believe in you
Child, do you know how much I care?"

"Child, don't listen to them
Child, I hope you know that I'll always be here
You are special in My eyes"

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Cell ReCHARGE @ Treasure Resort

... to charge us up before the 100K Challenge!

30 Jun ~ 1 July

Saturday morning will be bonding and interaction time with our outreach and to-be-consolidated contacts, including my life coachees. BEACH BEACH BEACH...

Sunday, June 17, 2007


After prayer meeting, let's talk about muar!

Heh. Yes this year i went with expectations to meet God plus also i wanted strength for the 100k too.

But then after reaching there, the sessions was good but then God didn't really touched me and i was kind of disappointed but told God, i don't know but all these times now, Lord take it, and do your work in me.

So here comes the second day!

I really thank God for the structure of the re-encounter this year. Although this year only had 3 sessions, the part where we did our study of the word and the Holy spirit thingy. I think it was really powerful.

There were also more bonding session which i was really thankful for. God spoke to me about faith and trust. The amazing thing was that God reminded me for the verse which says faith as small as a mustard seed can blah blah just that i could not remember where it was from.

In ministry at night, mummy got the same verse. haha. At nights, i don't know why just kept singing worship songs and could feel a new sense of joy.

And in church, i felt so joyful and also felt so much more bolder for God. I was also lead to pray for ah qi and didididina heng :P after service, if i was my old self, i will hesitate until all of us leave the hall.

BUT ARh today arh, i just went and pray for them leh! heh. Also prayed for novie's mom in CHINESE also leh. miracle right? hahaha.

I think that's all for now. (=

Recharged, refreshed and ready to go!

Friday, June 15, 2007

We're In The GOD'S ARMY, Yes Sir!

Calling Out To ALL! :D

Prayer Meeting was superbly great. I mean FANTABULOUS! Laughs. The worship was truly awesome and what the singer-cum-maybe-a-pastor-i-don't-know is so true. " Worshiping = Praying " Songs of praises for Jesus and singing rather than saying is exactly praying! In fact, I prefer doing it in songs. I feel that by expressing our love for God by singing, shows and reveals our true feelings, emotions and whatever that we feel deep in our hearts. God loves our praises and worships for Him because He would so delirious with joy when we idolise and love Him as our One and Only living God. How GREAT is our God! Yeah, one thing that I should say. It is we should give our ALL AND ALL to Jesus! When it comes to singing praises or worshiping or doing whatever, WHATEVER for God, we should let go of ourselves and think only God, just not be so conscious of ourselves and express our ultimate love for Him in all the ways that we can. God already gave us ALL His love, couldn't we just give some to Him? I mean, definitely, we should give all. But, because God is so merciful and such a Mr. Nice, even a little bit of our love can touch Him because He really loves us a lot. None can compare to His great love! As for the 100k Challenge, i am sad and sorry to say that i feel nothing about it. So i pray that God will give me the passion and yearning to look forward to the challenge! This 100k challenge really challenges us. Not only in our boldness, but also tests us our faith and trust in God. If we believe in God who would give us the compassion and courage, we would do the challenge not only willingly but also do it for God! In the first place, we should not even think of ourseleves when doing this challenge but just entrust our successes unto God and He will do a miracle on us. It is just, do we believe in God? If we really love God, we should do it unconditionally like God ALWAYS does. So, no more murmuring, fear, disbelief or whatever because that are all SATAN'S WORK IN US! Sure, we do not want devil in us yeah? Therefore, pray for yourselves for this challenge! Believe, and you will be led by our WONDROUS EVER GOD!

See you in the 100K Challenge!

With lots and lots of love from God and me!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Preparation for 100K Blessings!

Arise Warriors of Light, now is the time to prepare ourselves for the 100k campaign.

It starts with Prayer!

Let's pray daily for:
1) Protection
2) Compassion
3) Diligence

Bind the spirit of:
1) Fear
2) Unbelief
3) Murmuring

Matt 9:38
Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.


At the largest Prayer Meeting in the history of FCBC last night, i really felt the Corporate Anointing that God has been pouring upon His Warriors.

This line from Ps Khong stayed with me:
"The greatest authority God has given us is LOVE."

The authority to love, to share His love, to shine His love. How have i used this authority? Have i abused it? During the times when i chose not to love?

My heart broke last night. And i know the Lord has been breaking me a lot this month to prepare this vessel for Him. Tears streamed down my cheeks, in repentance and then receiving against the touch of God's love in my heart.

I cried to the Lord, 'More Lord, more Lord... Soften my heart more Lord. I need Your anointing of Love and Compassion MORE!'

The 100K Blessing is
1. God's Gift to the Nation
2. A Marketplace Ministry (we don't need to 'go'; we are already there!)
3. A Corporate Effort with Corporate Anointing

More to share on what God surfaced to me from last night's prayer meeting...

Monday, June 11, 2007

What is God's word for you?

During the EJ288 Re-encounter, each of us was asked to seek God for a word for the 100k Challenge.

Since He is our Chief Commander, and He truly understands our hearts, He definitely knows what to give to us individually to encourage us personally.

This is what the Lord told me:

I who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion
until the day of Christ Jesus.
(Philippians 1:6)

100% God

And this was my response to God:

(i will) see to it
that i complete the work i have received
in the Lord.
(Colossians 4:17)

100% man

(Notice my own 'i' are in small letters)

Yes, it should always be:

100% God + 100% man

What is God's word for you?

Are you spending enough time with Him as you prepare yourself and your heart for the Challenge? If your answer is no, most probably you will end up relying on yourself and wearing yourself out during it.

We cannot afford to be passive.

Psalm 73:21-28
When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

Yet I am always with You;
You hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with Your counsel,
and afterward You will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but You?
And earth has nothing I desire besides You.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

Those who are far from You will perish;
You destroy all who are unfaithful to You.
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge;
I will tell of all Your deeds.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

When your walk goes dry

i sought Amanda's permission to copy her post 'When your walk goes dry' from her minisermons blog (just added to blogroll). Go check out her treasures at that blog!

When i first read her 'secret' blog, i teared. Every word there showed me her heartfelt desire to grow in the Lord in and through all circumstances. She struggled, but clung on and grew deeper in Him. That is a true woman of God's strength.

Hard to believe she is only 15+ of age, and a 3-yr old Christian. Well praise God for transforming our lives! Aman dear, i am ultra supra dupra proud of you! =)



When your walk goes dry
15th May 2007
Recently i was very dry in my relationship with God that i soon gave up and let things be. I was only brought back as i confronted the problems i was having. And this blog too birthed out as i did not want to go back into the state of “dryness” and that i wanted to fully commit myself to God.

So far, this blog has been ‘forcing’ (i willingly let myself be forced) me to look onto God for revelations and to ask God and look unto Him for directions.

Many times we will experience dry parts of our life in seeking God and so be too caught up with everything around us too busy to look unto God and thinking that it doesn’t matter.

When i was in that state, i never pray. I just thought let me be, i can settle it myself don’t have to bother God. I’m too small for Him, too worthless. Why should he cares? Prayer have got no use to me at that time.

But of course that was totally off course. Of course He cares and He will answer the prayer i prayed as seen from Luke 18:1-8

1Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. 2He said: “In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. 3And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, ‘Grant me justice against my adversary.’

4“For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, ‘Even though I don’t fear God or care about men, 5yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually wear me out with her coming!’ “

6And the Lord said, “Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?”

From this passage, the word that came to my mind was, persevere.

Even through everything that happened to me in my life, i still attended church and i really thank God for that. And through this, i was also brought back to God the creator.

When you are in a rough patch of your life, would you still continue praying and thanking God for everything? Would you continue to trust God when you’re down?

I thank God that He never let let me go as He had promised.

Deut 31:6-Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

This song really ministered to me and i pray that even for people who may be reading this, i pray that you can persevere and experience the goodness of God.

Through it All


When your path becomes dry, keep your focus on the Sun (Son).

Friday, June 1, 2007


Momobel, you really put in a lot of effort to liven up this blog. You're so appreciated. :)
And to Amandaee too. :D

Encounter was alright for me. I didn't really had a different experience or whatever.
Just for a few moments though, when I feel God's boundless love for me and His everlasting promise of blessings. Sometimes we reject God's interference in our daily lives and you could just feel how heartbroken God will be. By doing this, we're actually sinning against God. I filled the stronghold list and realised how sinful I am actually, Thanks be to God, that He sent His One and Only Son down to the earth and die for us on the cross that our sins may be washed away by His blood.
We should not have any strongholds in our lives and instead, let God be our stronghold. So, burn all your sinful strongholds away because they keep you away from God. Let God control yor lives instead of all that strongholds. We face many disappointments, rejections, hurts and pains in our lives. God has planned them so that we could be broken and humble in front of Him. If ouyr lives has always been so smooth-sailing, would we seek God? Actually to me, it's a no. Through all these, then we could become very mighty and strong Warriors of Lights who are never afraid of setbacks and attacks. In short, God just wants to be with us because He really loves us very dearly.

That's all I've got to say, end of speech. Thank you. :)